Friday, September 30, 2011


Long long ago on Jeena's birthday!


What you want and what you get are two very different countries; sometimes imagination builds a bridge before you have the chance to realise it won’t hold weight.

Would you like you, if you met you?

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Rain or shine, it's just a state of mind.


Met JM on Saturday to study, but needless to say we failed miserably. Headed to Expo, and the mega flea was such a disappointment! Mahjong with his friends at night! Haha I am so bad at it. :(

Very busy week ahead. :( BUT OK, I CAN DO IT.


My blue roses still look beautiful even though they are drying up.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

The way I see it

You always want something you can't have. That piece of carrot that dangles in front of you at a distance, elusive and tantalizing. But once they try to shove it in your face, you turn the other way and run like hell.

I don't know what I want, because it seems like I want everything at once, and yet nothing at the same time. I have this image of a perfect guy in my head, and he only exists in a Hollywood movie. He is perfect and I must be a complete moron if I didn't know that no one in the real world is. But still I pit everyone else that I meet against him. Not enough. Not enough. Not enough. As if I'm so damn flawless myself.

It's like I have a mind of some puerile princess wannabe, dreaming and waiting for the day her prince charming in shining armour breaks through the door with his white horse. Well it doesn't have to be that way exactly; he could very well be donned in his no.1 with a bouquet of roses in a sexy Audi (Haha I kid). That's not to say that someone who resembles the one in your dreams will never come along. It's just that once this person sweeps you off your feet, he's in the perfect position to drop you on your ass. And he most probably will.

I’m too used to being alone. Happier than ever in my own skin that I’m not sure if anyone’s able to get under it anymore. I have successfully kept my heart shut for so long that it’s almost a reflex: when someone takes one step towards me, I take two steps back. No longer do I understand people who allow themselves to mope around on their single asses. I think being single is another kind of blessing.

Then again this is the 19 years and 9 months old me talking.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

It's alright to fear when we're tasting the sun

Tuesday: Met up with Joel! Had our lunch at some cafe near the Kallang River. Looking at the water made me miss canoeing again. Felt so happy walking under the sun at noon. I feel old, sick and frail being in the shade everyday.

Maggie goreng for dinner. I LOVE MAGGIE GORENG.

What we did during our 5-hour break in the library.

Lend me your hand and we’ll conquer them all
But lend me your heart and I’ll just let you fall
Lend me your eyes I can change what you see
But your soul you must keep totally free

Monday, September 12, 2011


Met Sijia after school on Friday! The plan was to study, have dinner, and walk around. The first part failed quite miserably but that's okay! I had her hooked onto Starbucks' chewy granola haha yay! And she got me addicted to Popeye's mash potato. H&M was a disappointment and all the hype is baffling.

Sijia said she missed my handwriting hahaha. ^^


I actually survived the entire Friday with just an hour of sleep the night before. I need to give myself a pat on the back.

I attended some social night event at Hilton on Thursday. I felt so weird initially because I didn't know anyone there, everyone looked uncomfortable somehow and it's almost funny. Time passed surprisingly quickly though.

So pretttyyyy! ^^

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Take your best shot, aim it at the sun.

Hello Kitty cup noodles from Bev! How cute!!


"If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days."
Sylvia Plath (The Bell Jar)

Sunday, September 4, 2011


for the wife
who says it’s hot dogs tonight, because she is home with me, and not out with someone else;

for the husband
who is on the sofa, being a couch potato, because he is home with me, and not out at the bars;

for the teenager
who is complaining about doing dishes, because she is at home, and not on the streets;

for the taxes I pay
because it means I am employed;

for the mess to clean after a party
because it means I have been surrounded by friends;

for the clothes that fit a little too snug
because it means I have enough to eat;

for the shadow that watches me work
because it means I am out in the sunshine;

for the lawn that needs mowing, windows that need cleaning, and gutters that need fixing
because it means I have a home;

for all the complaining I hear about the government
because it means we have freedom of speech;

for the lady behind me in church
who sings off key, because it means I can hear;

for the pile of clothing and ironing
because it means I have clothe to wear;

for weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day
because it means I have been capable of working hard;

for the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours
because it means
that I am alive."

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Your eyes shine perfectly when you’re smiling


2 caucasians approached Nat and I in town on tuesday and handed this to us! 1 of them is such a QTPIIIII ^^