Friday, February 4, 2011

Tell you I set you apart.

I smile so that I start to believe I’m fine. I lose myself in beats so that I don’t come face to face with my feelings. I wear eye liner so that I won’t cry. I talk to myself in my head whenever I feel like I’m losing it just to get a grip. I find ways to tire myself out just to fall asleep the moment I hit my bed so that I can’t think. It’s a matter of tricking myself. It’s a fight against myself. But they say the best way is not to fight it, just go. They say don't be trying all the time to fix things. They say what you run from only stays with you longer. And when you fight something, you only make it stronger.

I try everyday. I give myself no opportunity to miss you. But sometimes, just sometimes... I still do.

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