Monday, January 10, 2011

Is there nowhere out of the mind?

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Ulrika loves this very very bright flash that makes people look so fair in photos.

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3 weeks ago I joined TS again for work and I only started talking much more to this adorable friend of mine and some others last week. I was just thinking about how I only have 3 more days of work left before leaving again and I feel so sad I almost cried. I'm gonna miss the people.

On the other hand I'm kinda glad that I don't have to work anymore after Wednesday. Whenever I reach home I feel so exhausted that I can't even think. I need a breather. I don't wanna run anymore. I need to stop and breathe. I wanna live, not just go through the motions - hastily or not.

I don't wanna sound so down all the time but something just keeps getting in the way. My ephemeral happiness. Fleeting. This self insufficiency annoys the hell out of me. I don't want to complain too often, worry too much and take things for granted. I want to love enough.

But that's just so hard right now.

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