Friday, January 28, 2011

Littlest things

"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t always promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers and you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong and you really do have worth and you learn and you learn with every good-bye you learn."

— Veronica A. Shoffstall

♥ Morning messages. Waking up and realising I have more time to sleep. Macarons. Sushi. Perfectly painted nails. Tan lines. Laughing hard. Hugs. Curry fries. Smelling good. Guys who smell good. Smiles. Sunshine. Reading good books. Surprises. Topshop. Songs that makes me wanna dance. Htht. Looking good. Old songs. Kitties. Dogs. Sleeping in on a rainy day. Hearing my favourite song on the radio. Being missed. Perfect hair. Putting a smile on someone's face. Wearing cute knickers. Dressed in Topshop from head to toe unintentionally. Chivalry.

I thought my heart died ever since... two days ago. I've been finding all ways to psycho myself every single day and I think I managed to block out most of it, at least. Can't feel as much anymore honestly. And the thing is, when your heart dies, it's such a shame.

But I think my heart aches a little again today. I'm fine. I think. If I can do it once, I can do it again. Right?

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